A BIRTHDAY
THOUGHT….

Its
that time of the year again…I stop. I think. I reflect. Another year passed
me by just like that…but as i am thinking about all the things that happened
the past year, I can’t help but say… wow.

Why?
Because I just realized, a lot of things happened…and it all happened so
fast. In fact some of it seems like a blur to me now…

It’s
funny, it was around this time also when I celebrated my birthday in Bulacan
and telling everybody that it would be my last in the Philippines…so people
came…and after that party, I kind of thought it wouldn’t be the last after
all… plans were made but plans were cancelled as well… so i went on with my
daily routine…home, work, home… complain about my job, complain about my
life…but God has ways of making the ordinary become extraordinary… Christmas
came and it was that time that my car was damaged by some crazy people while I
was hearing mass. What a great way to celebrate Christmas eve right?! Then new year, then Valentine’s day… Oh my,
my worst Valentine ever… ha ha ha I know my friends would be laughing when we
reminisce about that day… it was absolutely surreal ha ha ha! And then my
sister turned 18…after that, several things happened that’s not worth
remembering anymore… after a while, i met someone who up to now is one of the
most important people in my life…that person made me see life in a different
perspective…

I
know you’ll probably read this but I remember something you said before and it stocked
in our heads… “ Good opportunities
knocks only once”  that line became
so famous to us… because up to now, we live by it… by now you already know
who you are he he he. And I can’t believe how it feels like I shared so much
with you already when we only got to spend a few days together. But with all
honesty, I’m glad I met you, whatever plans God may have for bringing you in my
life at that moment, I am thankful He did. Because you are the reason ( now im
sure of that ) why I was able to bounce back and become strong again… stay
stuck okay?

So,
after that I never thought my plans would ever push through…I was about to
give up and just accept the fact that its just not meant to happen…. but I
know God listens, because He knows whats in my heart…and so now, I am
here…where I am right now… and God made things fall into places. It may not
still be smooth and perfect but I do know that this is the start of the fulfilment
of my dreams…

It’s
kind of hard spending my birthday this year…this is the first time I’ve been
really far from my family and friends for my birthday… I would surely miss
the calls that I would have received, but I am glad that I am still
remembered…and you all have different ways of letting me know… awww love
nyo ko talaga hehehehe…

Well…
now I have a new year to look forward to. And I have a feeling it would be more
interesting and life changing than it was before… One thing I’m sure of is
that I’m a different person now.. Gone are the days that I would let anyone
take the better of me… I have learned so many things, the hardest way
possible I guess…but it’s okay… I am fine and stronger, wiser and
better…i have learned to open up myself to people who matters… I have
always been so guarded yet I always get hurt… I’ve always been smart, yet
stupid in the love department ( Yeah Lyndon I know and I can imagine you
laughing right now and saying “i told u so” )  But you know what guys, I have so much to look
forward to now… yeah, I take it one day at a time now… not rushing anything
to prevent mistakes…

I
guess I want to THANK all the people that has always been, has been and will
always be a part of my life. In you, I find reason to go on. In you, I find strength
and courage to keep on fighting. Thank you for the support, the trust, the
love, the friendship and the honesty… of course, with no hatred whatsoever, I
want also to Thank the people who have hurt me… because of you, I am stronger
now. I’ve forgiven and forgotten. I hope if there were any person that I hurt or
unintentionally took advantage of, I hope you can forgive me.. being human that
I am, I also tend to make mistakes…

So
my journey continues…and I am more than excited to see what is bound to
come…  

I AM WRITING THIS FOR A FRIEND. I WON’T NAME NAMES ANYMORE
BUT IM SURE THAT PERSON KNOWS THAT I’M TALKING ABOUT YOU….

I am writing and talking from experience. I am no expert
when it comes to life and love but i have had my share of heart and soul
breaking pains from love as well as the glitz and glamour of being in love…

Sweety, life is ironic. It certainly is… we all go through
that.. planning, building our dreams for
someone who we feel is worth everything that we are doing, everything that we
are sacrificing for… and for a while the feeling is exuberating, you are high
and floating of doing everything in your power just to make that dream happen.
You give your heart and soul, your everything just to make that person happy
and contented to be with you and only you.  You get so inspired doing things for that
person… and that is when you lose yourself… you forget that you should also
be doing this dream because you are a part of it… it should be a two way
thing… but sad to admit, love most of the time is a one way thing… you give
more than you receive.  So when those you
call “BLOCKS” for building your dream loosen or disappear, so does your
dreams… and for a moment you feel that even you life and your purpose
disappears…you forget that you are a cast too… you forget that you should
have built that dream more for yourself than for any other selfish human being
who couldn’t help you go through the pain and the hardship of acquiring your
dreams… so, it leaves you broken. Shattered into pieces that you barely know
how you would get up again and pick up the pieces that’s scattered now everywhere…
you just don’t know how to move on….

So the sad and pathetic part of life comes in… without
even thinking about it, without actually intending to do so, you start to use
other people just so you can stand up again and pretend that you are strong and
you are not in the losing end… sure, you were left behind, but damn that
person, there will always be someone better to come along… that’s how we
think.. that’s how we want to believe… but in the deepest part of our hearts we know, we are not that
strong…perhaps we are not strong at all… but life and reality is harsh…
and if u let that take the better part of you, you will never be able to bounce
back again… so you turn to other people for support… just so u can move
on… without  even thinking about that
other persons feelings… you become selfish and thinking only of yourself…
and when you are back to your feet, only two things can happen, be happy with
that person u unintentionally used for that time being or go on with your life
alone, hurting someone in the process but thinking, what the hell, I was hurt
too… everybody deserves to feel the pain and the hurt that I’ve experienced.

Then the cycle begins again… so how do u know you’ve found
true love? I don’t know… that also is my question, one great person told me
his definition of true love is a love that never changes, no matter what, when
and where… if that person can love you at your worst and at your best then
that there is true love… what he said is true, but in this superficial world
that we live in, it is so damn hard to
find who is real and who is fake… the way i see it, true love requires 3 things,
effort, commitment and compatibility… I have read and been told that in the
Bible, love is a command… you make love happen. You make it work.

When life starts playing tricks on you… when you start
liking someone but never likes you back, yet there is that some other person
who loves you unconditionally but you can never bring yourself to love that
person…what do you do? I know, you complain… you question Him… why does
He give people who are not for us.. why do we have to feel something for
someone who can never reciprocate? Why can’t we even like that one person who
is more than willing to give up their lives for us?! What kind of tricks is
life playing on us this time? The sad part is, you will never know the answer…
so you come to a conclusion… a worn out phrase “it’s just not meant to be”
sure, it sounds pathetic, but really, that’s the only thing you can say if only
to make you feel better…

What i am trying to say is, you don’t stop living. You don’t
stop loving. You don’t stop believing. You don’t stop trusting just because you
got bruised. Just because you got so hurt and broken because you know you can
bounce back… and you will be better the moment you stand up again and face
life… Our journey doesn’t stop there. Sure, you may be hurt more after that
one fall, it might get more painful and soul breaking each time but remember,
YOU BECOME BETTER AND BETTER AFTER EACH FALL. Just make sure you stand up
again…Don’t worry about those lonely nights, those sad, crying times… if
you have to and you want to cry, just do so. Don’t stop yourself from
doing so…but limit the tears. give it 5 minutes, 5 days, 5 months…
but don’t go beyond that… healing takes time, sure it does… but you
don’t have to cry all the time… don’t waste your tears for someone
who doesn’t deserve them…. lonely moments, it will pass…. and you
will smile again…

I know it is hard. I know for a moment it seems like life
will never be okay again. But it will be. Just believe. .. and continue
trusting, My sister once told me, “ate, He is just preparing you for the right
one. You’ve had a taste a heaven already, you are almost there. Just hang on. And
keep believing.”   It is hard. It is so hard to do so…but you
have to. And when you do, you’ll be glad you did… there is so much more to
life than just pain and suffering…live it.

You told me something that touched my heart. Never think
that two people are worlds apart. They are now. In God’s eyes, we are all the
same. No one is above the other… I am touched and flattered by what you
said…but again we said, not all people are meant for us… i will always be
your friend. I do believe in your dreams and your capabilities.. i know you’ll
make it big… just keep doing it for yourself…for becoming a better person..
everything will fall into place… all according to God’s time and plans…
because He has mapped out our life already…even before we were born.. and He
knows what we need to become strong and worthy of His plans for us… all that we are experiencing, all that we are
feeling, all that we question…He knows…. and He will answer… in His
time…

Don’t stop loving just because you failed the first time, or
the second time or the nth time… there will come a day, you won’t be blinded
by the effects anymore… and you will do more beautiful and lasting ones…
and it shall be yours…

I’ll always be here for you. The way that you have been
there for me.

thanks tin.. whatever your confusion is, you’ll get by it…. trust me.

"Somebody once told me that "finding the right person is very hard and
very wrong…it is best to be the right person for the one you love and
start from there…you’ll always end up disappointed when you set
standards and define a "right person" for you…and don’t rush things coz
somewhere, somehow, God is preparing somebody for you. Don’t be in a
hurry to get into a relationship because you can never find love if you
insist that you are already into it. Try to find time to really
understand your real feelings, to know who you really are, and what you
want in a relationship. You’re right, there’s no such thing as a
"perfect relationship," but there is a compatible partnership that goes
along with it. If you already knew that you’re too big to fit into a
small-sized t-shirt, don’t give it a try. You’ll probably break it and
pay for the damages you have made. If you knew and felt that the
relationship will not last, don’t go deeper into it. You’ll just suffer
the consequences and live like hell for the rest of your life. It’s
really hard to say goodbye though, but you can’t make it any better by
pretending you still have the same feelings. Try to let go and give
yourself a chance to live life to the fullest. Give yourself a chance
to grow and give your heart a much-needed attention. Then, you will
find that you have made the right decisions and you made it all by
yourself.We call it love when we can’t leave someone and see them
crying as we try to let go. We are wrong, it’s just pity…We call it
love when we’re too attached and think that losing the one we love will
somehow make us weak and unable to face the storms of life. We
misunderstood; it’s just that we’re too dependent on them.We call it
love when we give our whole life to them, the wholeness of us and
imagined that if they leave, no one would accept our past and us. We
are mistaken, it’s just insecurity.But no matter what the definition
is, the truth still remains that, love isn’t something you can buy or
beg. It is real and existing. You can’t touch it but you can feel it in
your heart. You can’t find it, but it will knock when you least expect
it to come. It can make you the happiest soul in earth, but don’t
forget that it can also make you the most miserable person in the whole
galaxy."

what is love?

Are your palms sweaty, is your heart racing and
is your voice caught within your chest??
-It isn’t love, it’s LIKE.

You can’t keep your eyes or hands off of them,
am I right??
-It isn’t love, it’s LUST.

Are you proud, and eager to show them off??
-It isn’t love, it’s LUCK.

Do you want them because you know they’re there??
-It isn’t love, it’s LONELINESS.

Are you there because it’s what everyone wants??
-It isn’t love, it’s LOYALTY.

Are you there because they kissed you, or held
your hand??
-It isn’t love, it’s LOW CONFIDENCE.

Do you stay for their confessions of love,
because you don’t want to hurt them??
-It isn’t love, it’s PITY.

Do you belong to them because their sight makes
your heart skip a beat??
-It isn’t love, it’s INFATUATION.

Do you pardon their faults because you care
about them??
-It isn’t love, it’s FRIENDSHIP.

Do you tell them every day they are the only one
you think of??
-It isn’t love, it’s a LIE.

Are you willing to give all of your favorite
things for their sake??
-It isn’t love, it’s CHARITY.

Does your heart ache and break when they’re sad??
-Then it’s LOVE.

Do you cry for their pain, even when they’re
strong??
-Then it’s LOVE.

Do their eyes see your true heart, and touch
your soul so deeply it hurts??
-Then it’s LOVE.

Do you stay because a blinding, incomprehensible
mix of pain and relation pulls you close and
holds you there??
-Then it’s LOVE.

Do you accept their faults because they’re a
part of who they are??
-Then it’s LOVE.

Are you attracted to others, but stay with them
faithfully without regret??
-Then it’s LOVE.

Would you give them your heart, your life, your
death??
-Then it’s LOVE.

Now, if love is painful, and tortures us so, why
do we love?
Why is it all we search for in life?
This pain, this agony?
Why is it all we long for?
This torture, this powerful death of self? Why?

The answer is so simple cause it’s…LOVE. It is
such an addictive thing that even people who are
not having it wish to experience it and share it
with others as well.

"you
want someone, who will always puts you as his first place, not just a
runner-up. all your life, you were never a runner-up in anything, you
tried and tried so hard not to be one, and this one won`t be your first
either."

got this idea from a friend. She said its rewarding to do something like this and I guess I agree with her…

This
is a piece of thanks to all the people who have touched my life one way
or another. you are the graces that I have received, beautiful things.
happy memories.

so
yeah, despite all the spirit / heart - breaking trials that happened
the past few years, months, days…. I REALLY AM GRATEFUL:

1.
for being brought up by two amazing people ( mama taught me everything
there is about life in her own ways, papa taught me to be strong and
willed) for never ending support and love you have extended me. we may
not meet each other eye to eye all the time…but I couldn’t ask for
anybody else to be my parents but you guys. I love you.
2. for my
brother macky, despite growing up, all our memories as kids will always
remain. and i love you even if we don’t really show it.
3. for maika
… for pretending not to be strong but deep inside i know you are. for
sharing years alone with you and knowing who and what we are.
4. for aiko… for being there all the time. despite the mood swings. I’ve always runned to you for help.
5. for mj… for making me see what I can be by being your yaya. for always being sweet.
6.
for kuya ed and ate gie… for being such great motivators…i know i
can always count on you..for showing me love and care as if im your
sister.
7. for Shane … despite the gap, the distance, and family
politics that we had… you remained the same person I knew before. and
for being there for me at that time and i know you’ll always be.
8.
for Lola Leony… for all that yo have instilled on me. For ever being
loving and supportive of all the things that we wanted to achieve. For
making me experience life outside the comformities of home. For still
being there… I know because I feel.
9. for tita isah and tito toto
& kids… for taking care of me while I was in CA. For tita, who
always have some words to lift me up.  For always caring and making
sure that I was okay. To Tito who made me smile all the time and who’d
leave work to pick me up. I sincerely appreciate it all.
10. for
tito pepe and tita ched…. for welcoming me into their home all the
time.  For their trust and respect. For showing me around despite
travelling far and spending too much. For tito, who’s guidance I’ll
carry with me in this new life that I am taking. My heart and prayers
will always be with you.
11. for Lai, Sha & Tin … for being
like my sisters while I was with them. Sha, for always making me smile,
never a dull moment. For Tin, for trusting me as well. you are a good
person and you know that. For Lai, for sharing everything to me, from
bed, clothes to life…God loves and have plans for all of us… thank
you for everything.
12. for tita ellen.. for accepting me in her home and being there. and for everything else. you know what those are.
13.
for tita daisy and tito dan… for tita who’s always there as well. for
supporting me. for tito dan … for making sure I know how special i
am. and that i can conquer the world.
14. for mommy lithe, ate beth and dan … for all the help and concern. for checking on me all the time it means a lot.
15. for kuya alvin … you are my brother. i love you to pieces. thank you for everything,
16. for ate jayne … thank you. for listening. for supporting. for the love.
17. for tito jun … you just never fail to amaze me. but thank you for checking on me always.
18.
for tita ut … your trust, your faith is inspiring. I’ll forever be in
debt to you for the teachings, the experience and understanding you
have given me. You make my spirit full. Thank you from the bottom of my
heart.
19. for tina & joice … for being my support and
strenght at the weakest point of my life. I can never thank you enough
for the patience of my everyday whims and complains in life. i love you
both.
20. for christine, jade, bianca, melo and paulette…our
friendship means everything to me. I may have many other friends
besides you guys, but the one that we share can never be shattered by
distance, time and differences that we may all have. thank you for
everything,
21. for tin tin and rach … a friendship that no matter
how different we may be, we click. Ate tin, for being there for me
despite the distance. You never stopped caring and i love you for that.
Irregardless of whatever happened before you remained a friend.
22.
for Rick… because of you I saw me in a different way. a good, better
way. and thank you forbeing there still. I completely enjoy time spend
with you. just don’t be depressed too much lol hehehe mwuah!
23. for
richard and ronald … for being a friend to me. we three knew what
we’ve been through. And Im so glad you guys were there to help me get
up and start my life again. I will always be here. will always be your
friend.
24. for Jayson… from high school up until now you remained
a friend. for being the only one who had enough confidence to tell me
when something is wrong with me but remaining sympathetic. I treasure
your friendship. you are a testimonial that guys and girls can be just
friends.
25. for Elmer … "mahal" for always having your shoulder
ready for me to cry on. for all the help you’ve extended to me and my
family.  you will always be remembered.

26. for Chang … for
being so nice. for all the things/ learnings you taught me… for the
time you spend with me, showing me places and good time. for filling up
the memory card of my camera..let’s fill it up some more what do u
think?… you are something. thank you from the deepest part of my
heart. For making me smile and laugh always. I enjoyed all the talk
that we had. about life, about religion everything. because of you, i
finally understood what matrix is all about lol. but thank you…for
the concern…

27. and to God… for all the blessings, all the graces, for all the trials…without you in my life…i know I wouldn’t be KAY

They say that life is a box of chocolates, you’ll never know what
you’re gonna get…. one minute you are enjoying the sweet, milky ones
and next minute you’re eating those bitter ones that not too many
likes…

it’s funny thinking about it though. those bitter dark
chocolates, they say are good for a persons health…but comparing
chocolates to real life, those dark ones are the challenges, problems,
difficulties that we encounter in our life…is it also good for us? i
guess at some point it is…because those things makes us stronger,
better and wiser in life…

but if life is a box of chocolates,
so are people. You’ll never really know what’s inside a persons mind.
some like it just sweet and delicious. that all things are going well
and smooth for them. some like it a bit bitter..you know, they like
feeling pain and hardship to get by life. some likes it with
variation…with a little cherry inside or coconut or caramel…they
don’t like just plain living….but all in all…they enjoy life.
whatever kind of chocolate they may be having.

the past 2 weeks
has been really hard for me. leaving my job, deciding to move (finally)
to another location that is really far from home… I am scared. I am
nervous. I get sleepless nights…but then, for those who know me,
really knows me..they do know that my fears won’t stop me from doing
what I’ve set my mind into doing. But i’m having mixed feelings right
now. I do miss home. I do miss my sisters and my brother and my
parents..i just don;t show it that much coz I don’t want to be backing
up and forgetting everything I’ve just made…I’m feeling sad lately.
down. but I have to snapped out of this soon…really soon coz its not
healthy. I have to go back to my perky self.

I am missing you.
but you don’t know it. I don’t what to let you know. I’m scared. oh my!
what’s with all these fears that I am having?!  Am I losing confidence
now? hmmm… dangerous…but yeah. i do miss.

why are dreams proving to be hard to achieve? why can’t one just be happy fulfilling his lifelong dream?

Sure,
obstacles are part of life. Part of how you will be molded to become
what and how you are… but then again, not all people are strong
enough to face and go through all obstacles that life brings… its sad
that sometimes, in ones quest of finding his dreams, one becomes too
weak and hopeless to just go on….so in the end, the person just gives
up. and just let time take its place and bring him whatever…so much
for dreaming, so much for hoping, so much for life…
how sad… how pathetic… how disappointing.

how
many more out there are like that? Am I going to be one? I am strong, I
know what I want…but up to what extent am i willing to go? how much
more of lifes jokes can i take? a person, no matter how strong and
willed also has a melting point.

I hope my faith will see me through… It’s been 27 years. its been a long time. it has to be soon if not now. I want a life…

I
trust that I can make it happen. Love can and will have to wait for
now…. reality check? I’m at a crossroad..I have yet to decide which
path to cross. God be my guide. I know He will lead me to the right
way.

I complain a lot. I cry a lot. I feel sad and down and
depress so often… but with my faith and my relationship with God. I
know i’ll make it through…

yes, dreams will come…. and oh
yes, dreams are hard to achieve…but always believe, no matter how
hard and painful, dreams can become a reality.

Yeah. Maybe its just the season, or maybe it’s just the in thing right now…
seems like everybody’s getting married…. planned or not..fact is, they are all walking down the aisle…

it gets a bit sad that people I know and care for are getting married already…kinda feel like im being left behind… these are the days that I can’t help but feel sentimental… they’ve found their happiness that most of us takes a lifetime to find… They are happy, their eyes are glowing, their smiles reaches their ears…and seeing them look at each other, there really is something about two people inlove, and how they look at each other makes people around them envious of what they are having…

sure, the future is unknown…they may not know what lies ahead for them, but this is the moment. and right this minute they are very much in love…and seeing people so in love with each other also gives you that hopeful feeling…hopeful that someday, you too, would be looking at somebody that is meant for you with so much love and joy and contentment…hopeful that there is also someone out there made just for you… somehow, when you see two people madly in love with each other, it makes you feel and believe in fairy tales once again…makes you wonder if forever do also exists for you….

I guess it does…for all of us… it just takes different time and moment for all of us… maybe for some, it will take longer than they expected, maybe for some its going to be tonight or tomorrow…but no matter…if one believes, it will come then it will come….

yes, patience…
yes, faith…
yes, hope…
yes, forever….

i believe
i hope
i pray
i trust
i wait…

don’t get me wrong, im happy for all of you… i sincerely am…
when you love and trust and believe in that magic that you call…
i feel the same for all of you. I too do trust and believe…
I’m with you….

Love hurts. It’s a fact that has been established millions of times since people took over this planet.The havoc love can wreak on one’s life is a universal truth. Which makes me wonder why no one ever taught us how to deal with it. In school, we were taught our 123s and ABCs. We were equipped with knowledge on sciences and sports. We were instructed on how to cut frogs open, how electricity works, we were even drilled on what to do during an earthquake. But why were we never given a step-by-step recovery guide in case someone trampled on our hearts?

Or were our teachers just as clueless?Were they hurting too?Most people - like us - were left with no choice but to let love be the teacher.And love has a lot of lessons to teach.

You haven’t known love if you haven’t experienced staring at a phone that just refuses to ring, sobbing loudly into a pillow, wondering why sad songs suddenly become gospel.

True, it’s not fun. There is no joy in waking up with swollen eyes, in figuring out what went wrong, in guessing if he still thinks about you, in weighing if there was any truth to anything he ever said, in hoping that there is still a chance.

But find comfort in the fact that you are not alone. There are broken hearts all over the world.

Somewhere in South Africa, a girl is looking through old photos, wondering if she should burn them.

Somewhere in New York, a girl just sent an angry e-mail to an ex and immediately regretted it after.

Somewhere in New Zealand, a boy is getting drunk because the girl he loves is getting married tomorrow.

Somewhere in Spain, a woman just broke down after finding out that her husband is cheating.

You are not alone.Yours is not the first heart to be broken nor will it be the last.But know that the human heart is strong enough to withstand pain and powerful enough to move on and start again.

You will heal, like all the others did, like everyone else will.

Things will get better, although it’s hard to imagine now. One day, when you wake up and realize that not all men are evil, you might even decide that you are ready to love again.

In the meantime, I will be here to listen to you denounce love even if we know you don’t really mean it. I will be here for late-night pigout sessions. I will be the audience to your drama queen. I will participate in memento-burning ceremonies. I will strap my seatbelt on and go where your mood swings take me. And I will try to stop you from drunk-dialling - and intoxicated texting and e-mailing.

Because if there’s one thing a broken heart needs - it’s the presence of a friend.

–
love you tina..

Okay its lunch break so i have like time to spare….its not like people here actually take lunch breaks..everybody is so busy….but well i figured if i dont take a break i won’t function anymore…

lack of sleep, lack of coffee (never liked brewed kasi), lack of shopping hahahaha!

okay so, i’ve been here in LA for a week now… grabe i cannot believe its only been a week, seems longer than that already! but so far, all i’ve seen is the airport, the LA Convention Center, the office and the house…well, that and chinatown where we had dimsum for breakfast! but it was a good place, food really tasted good….

it’s funny coz we weren’t given the chance to be "jetlagged" at all! hehehe. we have so many groceries when we got here, so many meats and poultries and fishes sa ref but we barely opened the ref at home! no time to just stay at home and cook. grapes, milk, cheese rolls and castanas are our constant companion the past few days..

last Saturday and SUnday was the Fil - Ame Exhibit, the main reason why we’re here actually…it went well.. grabe, pinoys are so hard to deal with talaga, irregardless of where they are…some became too proud pa nga just because they are here already…but what can i do di ba? after the exhibits we just go home to tired to move and slepy for we haven’t adjusted to the time yet…but i am having a blast! kahit pagod pagod..Sunday nite, last day of the exhibit, my relatives ( papa side) went there, it was fun parang mini reunion na din. they picked me up, couldnt decide if we were having sushi or chinese or Filipino food… until finally decided to go to Tito Pepe’s house and order Thai instead. good thining. more relaxed and rest for me! and i got to call the Philippines!!!!

this week we’ll stay at the office lang, yesterday was a long day! but it was good pa din.. i got to talk to my kuya alvin and man, i can’t wait for august to end so i can go to chicago and have my 2 weeks vacation na!!!! i miss my cousins their and grabe, they’ve been calling me nonstop as if im not gonna go there. i still don’t have a local number here but hopefully later today i can get one already. it costs so much sa roaming! ( guys forgive me if im talking nonstop, ive been infront of the computer for the longest time and i really just want to talk people here are so busy bawal ang tsismisan!)

but i’m not complaining… i just really can’t wait to go on vacation. and my Gosh, i don’t know what will happen sa Pinas but it sure doesn’t look good from here…. i pray all will end well… im sure it will….

i miss my sisters! nothing beats going home and having some girls to talk to who are a bit close my age…going home and being able to watch tv and just lounge around… for the first time in my life, i understand and believed how some people say that they’ve been in that country for years and yet haven’t seen what’s out there… i;m actually experiencing that now… although i met a lot of Filipino’s here, and they say they still want it here coz everybody is equal… no matter the title or the position they call each other by the first name. unlike sa atin, "titles" are very important…yeah they do have a point….

during the time that i had to visit clients sa Filipino areas, a lot of Pinoys there are really nice. they don’t know me, but soonest they find  out i just got here they invite you for lunch, dinner or whatever. sabik din sila sa kapwa pinoy eh, maski sabihin mong parang Manila na sa LA coz everywhere you go puro pinoy makikita mo, iba pa din pag galing sa atin… but they are nice. during the exhibit we had to stay at tita’s friends house coz its nearer the convention center and they are really nice. grabe the hospitality of pinoys talaga, nothing compares to that.

anyways, i need to go back to work now… hopefully ill be able to upload pictures soon. just really dont have the time. naks, busy girl hahahaha!

its funny even up to now you never stop to amaze me. carry on lang dear. good luck!

i miss my girls!

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